words how we say it matters

Words

In Ninth and tenth grade I was in a fork in the rode. In ninth grade I was smoking pot. Most of the kids in my grade were. In the ninth grade I started hanging out behind gym. I read Steven king and dean r konze. I loved Freddy Krueger and Jason. I liked dragons fairies vampires and demons. I thought I was a normal kid. In the beginning of the tenth grade these was this Christian boy “josh” who was trying for be my friend. He had two classes with me. He would sit next to me and talk. He was pretty cool. He went to church with these tree girls. “Why are you talking to her she is so weird” “Josh did you see that magazine she had with all that blood in it that evil” “ josh you should not be seen with her she a bad seed” they made me out to be the spawn of the devil. They stuck there nose with me. Made it seam like they were better than me.

Josh ask if he could walk to the park with me. “hay Trish you should go to church with me” I told him I do not know. Most of his “Church” friends did not like me but I would think about it. We walked thru the park and would you know it one of these girls followed us. “ josh you going to smoke aren’t you.” He said no “she going to make you smoke it” that’s when I got mouthy. It ended with “Josh you going to end up In trouble if you keep hanging out with her” Nice right. We talked for a little bit longer. Then my friends came along. There were not much better. They ask what I was doing with that dork. The next week at school Josh kind of ignored me. He told me that she told his mom and he could not hang out with me

Well if that how Christians treated people then screw them. Forget god and that church stuff. If he didn’t want me I did not want him. So I had this god shaped hole in my heart that I could not fill. I started hanging out with the really bad kids. A few other incidents that left a really bad taste in my mouth for church. Fell in to the drug scene. My god shape hole not filled yet. Started dating. The hole still empty. I became really in to the new age stuff. Ouija boards taro cards all kind of stuff. I was searching for the exact think I was running away form. GOD

I am not blaming then for the really bad choices I made in my life. I did some horrible things and I take full responsibility for them. Now if I went to church would every thing turned out for the good who knows. I just warn against what we say. How we act and how we treat people dose more good or harm that anything in pop culture. We may hold strong to our beliefs with out casting any one. So If I get a little testy when certain conversations come up that is why. Our words hurt sometimes. Ps If I offended any one with any of my posts I never meant to do that