My life to understand...................may God get the glory.

I can only say I'm who I'm by the grace of God
I've been married 4 times and have 3 son's; had 3 step daughters ( I still claim but don't know if they do )
As the saying goes when you hold the flower you love, you crush the petals and ruin the flower (I'm good at that) some things just don't work when theirs no communication.
BUT I THINK AND HOPE I LEARN FROM MY MISTAKES
because I have at this time 2 granddaughters that love me for sure and 1 grandson.
when you listen to my music list I hope you get to know me,
some songs are about me, some of my humor, some I like, and some I believe. Sometimes I wonder what's life all about? Why care nobody else does. I'm just a square peg in a round hole, I have a home but I'm never home, I'm like the wind I'm here then I'm gone. I can't do what I want to because .............well what excuse do I have, none.I have done more drugs and alcohol then I would care to share ( it doesn't make you cool, it robs you, the price you pay you wear for life, if your lucky enough to have a life afterward) was exposed to adult material by the age 6 and twice succeed in fooling would be rapist that they had me, (when praise God they where to drunk to know) before the age of 10, watched the filming of adult films and nobody cared, ran the streets till midnight as long as we where home before the adults got home from the bars, to many fights to recall, whipped with a 12 foot bull whip all before the age of 12 . Then we moved to rural America (thank you Lord) I was lean and mean worked like a man at age 13 on and loved it could hold my own and didn't get hurt......till I fell in love, the spiral of young love of how these country young ladies couldn't deal with a mess like me, nor I them, love you feel it, it's great , then what would a young man like me know about cherishing it , nurturing it, understanding it, not a thing was lost as if someone took me to the north pole and said build a house, that would have been easier. Thank God for a Godly grandmother who wore her knee's out praying and a loving God who had other idea's and finally got threw , he taught me somethings and still is. Brother and Sisters you know your loved when people love you in spite of your self, when your friends stick by you behind your back and you can forgive others the way you want to be forgiven! The things I've done wrong I have to live with, I bring my problems on myself and try to work threw them. WHAT EVER YOU DO tho don't give up like my mom did, " It's the most selfish act to commit, it effects people life's in ways that can't be fixed". What ever problems their are, can be worked threw, might take a life time to get there or might even be after your gone from this earth. Love is the key, sorry to say but my grandchildren drove this point home, as my little star say's huggie huggie kissie kissie , a hug and a kiss, laughter and playing, wipe away a tear and make someone smile makes my life full. If only I understood that earlier how much more rich would my life have been. TO THOSE I HAVE OFFENDED I SAY SORRY AND PLEASE FORGIVE. To those that care I say from the bottom of my heart thank you !! MAY YOUR LIFE BE BLESSED OF GOD.