I AM FREE, MADE OVER, AND BECOMING!!!

So this freedom weekend, which I will now do every weekend (or try) because somethings need to be let lose within our lives...and we need to go face-to-face with HIM daily to repent and ask things to be lose from our lives...and boy am I am losing myself and becoming renewed daily...Yay JESUS for your BLOOD
**KEEP IN MIND THAT MOST OF THIS BLOG IS THE WORD OF GOD AND WHAT SOME OF MY CHURCH MINISTERS HAD TO SAY ABOUT IT. NONE OF IT IS ME, UNLESS I SAY THIS APPLIES TO ME. I JUST DONT WAN'T TO BE TAKING CREDIT FOR SOMETHING I HAVE NO BUSINESS TAKING CREDIT FOR..ALRIGHT THEN :)

Okay so there were many sermons taught hour after hour the whole weekend:
The first sermon was about was about how and when we encounter GOD, and that is when we are at the end of our ropes. They gave the example of Jacob and his decitful, manipulating, greedy ways cause him to hit rock bottom: no food, no money, no home. And trouble was on its way (his brother) but Jacob wrestled with GOD because he needed somethings to happen...and GOD saw that desire.
Now this applies to me, because instead of just letting JESUS into my heart I try to seek him intellectually. With my mind, doing something just to get results, but GOD wants my heart.

The second sermon we talked about was about forgiveness. And how we do not easily forgive others, which cause our sins to not be forgiven. While writing notes i wrote "no forgive-no forgiveness; forgive-forgiven". We talked about how JESUS had already forgave his disciples before they turned against him by washing their feet, so that as they see him and hang their head they will know that they were forgiven...all i could say was JESUS right here because I have heard the story but there is always new revelation for me. Another point made was how even though HE takes our sins and throws them into the depth of the seas, never to return again; however we tend to got pick back up some of those sins WE HAVE TO LET IT GO. He forgave us so lets not keep dealing with it. But before he forgives us we have to forgive others so we can be set free form our sins. Forgive all the hurt that ppl have done to us: rape, molestation, violateed you physically, sexually, or verbally, or if someone disrecpected you in any way LET IT GO.
Now this applies to me, because I has so many issues i was dealing with in my mind: lustfulness, envy, jealous, not wanting to submit to his will his way. And that was because i was hating my father for the way he verbally treated ppl. I mean i love him with all my heart, but i just could not stand him. And instead of praying for him i would say I HATE HIM, HE NEEDS TO DIE, GET A DIVORCE. Exactly what the devil wants to happen, because it cause destruction and divison within the household. And there was also a unpleasant presence in my household...i just did not like it.
I could not forgive and still show acts of love towards my sibilings even after i would do things for them and they would only reac negatively...that really hurts. I could not forgive that lady who once came to my work and was pointing her nose down on me (racial issue) I have not really experience something like that, so tear had actully came at first but then my flesh was like man if she say one more thing ima jump stupid on her=i was going to hurt her with words (i know you guys dont really know the youthful lingo LOL). And I was even hurting and hindering myself when i would speak so much hatred into my fathers life and over this I JUST WANNA LEAVE AND GO AWAY is what i would say...just did not like the atmosphere in that house and the worst part is that i was setting that atomsphere with my words-watch what you speak.

The next sermon was talking about the doors we leave open for the devil to enter. The main one is by what we speak. Thats why my situation was looking like it was just getting worse and worse, because of what i was speaking. Other major ways is not abiding in what GOD ask us to do in example reading our bibles daily and fellowshiping with him daily-that truly struck a cord in my heart yes sir/ma'am it did ;). Unforgiving others which allows us to be bound up in our own sins, uncontrolled thoughts and words, judgment generational curses, and trauma. Well i experinced about all of it expect the trauma THANK YOU JESUS I had a very loving family though at times things were rough they truly loved me THANK YOU JESUS (i am not meaning to compare my situations to others so I hope this cause no offense).
Now this applies to me because to the way i would speak so foul over my father and my parents marriage. How I would tell my sister how lazy and selfish they were..and with my words they stayed just as they were and things once agian did not get any better...they stay just i has spoke them. One of the ladies said it like this what we speak negatively that is a legal signal for the devil to send his demons to do the work which we proclaimed. WHAT WE SPEAK SHALL COME TO PAST. Speak life, joy, peace and happiness with your tounge. And my thoughts were just as foul as actions and words. A lustful spirit, jealous of what my friends who had those "boyfriends" in there lifes, and all the "love" they recieved from him-i do " " because it was not real love it was lust, and who can get with who first type stuff...yes kids do this and no one ever told them to stop. Now most of them have STD more than one kid. I know GOD can make a way but they have lost a part of themselves with the way they carried themselves back in the day. Actions now have long lasting results. OKAY GOT OF SUBJECT SORRY JUST TYPING AS IT COMES. Now...but all GOD was doing was keeping me from all that hurt and pain and i am just coming to realize that, I was not meant to go through the pains, and depressions and sense of a loss life THANK YOU JESUS.

The next two sermons about us sinning and how the cross and the blood of JESUS has saved us. So we all know that all have sin and fall short of his glory. We went back to the garden and how Adam and Eve sinned. This was revelation to me right here: Eve sinned first when she even talked/entertained that serpent...be careful what we listen to. She knew what was right and what GOD had said, but she still did wrong (did not obey)-SIN yes sir/ma'am it is.
Now this applied to me when i would let that certain boy even entertain me with his foolish talk about "ooo your so pretty, why can't the other girls be like you"...i should have just walked away because deep inside i knew it was WRONG but i continue to sit there and build my fleshly lust up...which led way to thoughts, no actions came THANK YOU JESUS. One sin leads to another which leads to another etc.
However thats what the blood was shed for, for us to be set free and no harm can be done against it. I like to say "He died for it all, so why you still dealing with it". The cross purifies us


Now anther activity we participated in was a changed name. As i told you guys i was dealing with those lustful thoughts, unclean thoughs, unholy mouth BE GLORY BE TO JESUS HE GAVE ME HIMSELF HE CALLS ME PURITY

Whatever the devil was telling me was the total opp of what GOD had in store for me so i call myself PURE PURE PURE THANK YOU JESUS. My mouth is pure I speak well of my father I call him and awesome man of GOD who brings order into this house, and that my parents marriage is made whole with nothing missing nothing broken. Finances are whole, I am and awesome woman of GOD who loves the LORD with her heart and seeks after him daily. My thoughts do not have me in bondage and all i can say is THANK YOU JESUS THANK YOU JESUS. I am becoming a new creature day by day by day...and i live for you LORD.

I also need to rededicate my life to him agian so i did it for real this time, and i got baptized this weeked today...and boy am i ready to start getting into this word YAY TO JESUS YAY!!!

I told you guys i would come back with a new fire. The only things that i did not recieve was the gift of toungues but I will not grow weary bc JESUS will release that speacial gift within me at the right time and in the right place in the right way...but i will continuing to surrender myself to him completly

O how i love HIM, and I love you guys to

LUV AND BLESSINGS!!!

YAY JESUS ;)