Health, Doctors and Prayer

Last week I came across some health problems that have been apparent for a few years now and has decided it is time to act up more now than ever before. So now I sit here praying for God to sustain my concerns and fears as I wonder what could be going on in my body, is it a matter of will I live or die.....or is it something curable and correctable or something I will have to learn to live with?? Is it something that given the right time and medicine will go away, and will it consist of surgery? Is it something that I will need to take medicines and be cared for the rest of my life and will never get better only managed?

How scary this all can be, and to think I have been through 1 tubal pregnancy and 2 other miscarriages that were possible tubals, (life threatening) without ever bllinking an eye. Allowing God to sustain me the whole way, hurting so deep because of the loss but knowing God knew best and I trusted Him in whatever the outcome may be. Throughout the end of the week I'm sure I will be more familiar with what ever is going on, but I fear at the moment the unknown. The what's happening, the what if's are a killer and torment to the mind when you don't look for the calming and peace that Christ offers.

Jesus please hold my hand, I need you to carry me now. I love You and thank You and praise your Holy Name.