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joshua commented on Helena_LIBAW's group 'Women & Men Waiting on God For Our Husbands & Choosing A Wife!!!'"i hear u colby, and there are many swords of the spirit. jesus only gave us 3 examples. and showed us 3 swords.i mean if u put a periode after the s, in the word sword u get "s.word" spirit word. which is exectly what it is. the word of…"
joshua commented on Helena_LIBAW's group 'Women & Men Waiting on God For Our Husbands & Choosing a Wife!!!'"this may sound weird to all u ladies, but i think some of u got ur wish. i know sum of u have wished that men would go through sumthin similar to what u have gone through. well heres one that has. i was a faithful husband who loved and still loves…"
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Women & Men Waiting on God For Our Husbands & Choosing a Wife!!!
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- About Me
- well i guess its about time to tell about me. where do i evenstart. to tell u the truth, it would only sound like complaining. thats how bad my life has been. ur probably like man this guy is already sad n depressed. and thats exactlywhere i need u to be to start my story..well here it goes. my mother had me at the age of 14, my dad 16. father left to austin, mom stayed home. mom left a few years later because it was too much being a child raising a child. my grandparents raised me. the first time we were homeless i was 8 and in the second grade. didnt go to school much, but did meet some very interesting bumbs inwhich i befreinded. one even looked like jesus. we lived in 2 cars and i slept at water burger alot.i was a master theif. i always thought of it like i was being robin hood or something. cause i gave alot og gold chains to the homeless guys who in return sold it for drugs. go figure right.well we finally found a home andi started back to school having to repeat the 2nd grade due to my major absence.finalld after a few years i see my mother again. i decide to go live with her. i was 12. she was married with 2 kids and an alchaholic to say the least. after much abuse that i didnt understand. verbal and emotional mostly, i became very suicidal and just wanted to die. i then started smokin pot and killed my emotions. my heart breaking all the time was the thing which hurt me the most, not the physical pain. by this time i was 15. after being arrested several times in highschool for drugs i was locked up n a kinda mentel institute for aparently bing uncontrolable. i finally got out and had a huge fight with my mom n her new husband.i was once again homeless. i was by then a senior in highschool, 18 homeless and working at discount tire. finally graduation was close. then i got arrested for drugs again. oh by the way my long lost father finally showed up after 18 years. he bailed me out of jail . i then kept setting my court date back over and over in order to make time to graduate. the first in my family may i add. well i graduated and was about to go to court, where i would on easily spent 5 yrs. do to this being like my 4th possesion charge. but then something strange happend. it was the year 2001. hurricane allison showed up slightly after a prayr to god that i knew i was ment for more than just this. being still homeless i went to austin. the hurricane torehouston apart, including the court house i was to be in , in a few days. i finally went to court were i get my first break ever from the law. the judge said to go and donate 2 hundred dollars to the salvation army and bring back the reciept n he would drop all my chares. so i did it and was free. and i was a highschool graduate, homeless and all. after that still not talking tomy mom, i went to the meps station down town houston and joined the navy. i called her at the airport on the way to chicago. the conversation was short n sweet. the date was july 31st 2001. while almost outa bootcamp sept.11 happend and next thing i know i was headed for war. i was in the worst danmd ship the navy had to offer. and the oldest might i add. the uss kittyhawk. home port. yokosuka japan. i sailed around the world and back as a deck seaman for almost 4 years then i made 3rd class 2 weeks before i got out. hahhaaha what a joke. but i leaft a boatswainsmate and had the respect of the whole ship when i left.i came back home and well partied like a sailor. as hard as i could. robbing liquer stores and flee markets, lil stores and convenient stores.my cousin and i were quite the team. he eventually got caught for being sloppy and robbin without me.i soon started hangin out with alot of the prison gang Houstone. my step dad was one of there main drug dealers for cocaine. i felt like a prince wherever i went. i was literally in the gangsta's paradice. money women drugs respect and an endless supply of coke. but believe it or not, it all got kinda old. 2b continued on test
- My Testimony
- i begain taking alot of zanex bars n partying even harder, the zanex made me reallllly not care at all. plus my urge to steal, trippled. i would black out and wake up in all sorts of places with all sorts of people. i even passed out on the frwy. several times. and thank god came out untouched. waking up barely missing telephone poles n other cars. but then one day i met a girl at my homeboys house when i went to go smoke out. she was with her man. ill never forget that day. tears well up in my eyes even now thinking about it. we knew eachother with ut ever even meeting. she was my true love. the one i searched the world for but found in my home town. her name was Kimberly. i befriended her man quick. eventually i moved in with them shortly after. i had to have her. finally we both just knew...... i stole her from her man and got us our own apt. i prayed to god that night before she left him for me. i said ill give up the zanex and ill work every day and change and seek u and be a good mn, if youll just give me this woman. the next nite she was with me. it was love at first site and more than that at first touch. 6 months later i proposed.she said yes. 2 months after that we were pregnant with our planned daughter. matilda. we started going t church and got babitized giving our lives to jesus. much changed after that. i never knew the peace that overcame our lives. we were later married on march 10, we had our daughter on apil 27th. i had a family. it wasnt easy being married. my wife grew very jelouse. even though i wasnt cheating or wanting to. but satan was at work doing what he does best. lieing. a year went by and we were pregnant with my son. we didnt think we could handle another child but trusted in the lord. J.J. was born june 13th 0f 08. he was everything i never knew i always wanted. he was the most beautiful thing i had ever seen next to my wife. i thank god that he knew me better than i knew myself. i know it was hard on my wife raising 2 kids while i worked to keep things flowing. one night feb. 9th of 09. my wife and i get into an argument over the stupid lil child safety gate. my wife slaming doors took off to the bedroom and i cusing went to the living room. for the first time ever i waited and cooled down. rather than my usual chasing after her and talking or fighting it out. i got up after 10 mins to talk to her. when i found her, she was in the closet on her knees with a cord around her neck and she was blue in the face.i took the cord from her neck and started doing cpr. i would not give her up that easily. i fought till the ambulance got there.i kept het heart beating. she was alive but barely. she lived for 2 more days and then died on the 11th. now im a widow with 2 kids under 2. i live on my own and do it all by myself. the only real help i recieve is from god. at first he carried me through the first month. then i asked to let me feel it. he released his grip on my heart and then i suffered as Job suffered. i cant even describe the pain i felt plus becoming mom and dad.god had to put me into the fire to make me the mn i am today. they say u purify god in the fire and a dimond is made from great pressure. i had both. i wanted to die sooo many nights. i cried for months and lost my mind trying to figure out why god was letting this happen to me.i was a christian and loved him soo much already. he said it was to make me the man im supposed to be for him. it was all apart of his great plan. Job suffered greatly but afterwards, Job knew god. i once prayed to god before my wife died for god to not let me be one of those people in the last day he will turn awaym because they never knew him. now... i can honestly say. i know god and have an even stronger love and relationship with Jesus. now im growing stronger and stronger in the spirit, and awaiting the wife i prayed for. this is my testimony. the lord is the onlyone worthy of praise and glory.its because of him im even alive today.
- Favorite Activities
- reading, studying, playing with my kids, praising the lord, working out, watching my soaps , watching jesus of nazareth. helping and ministering to others. talking about how good god is and how awsome his son jesus is. writing sermons, writing notes from the holy spirit speaking to my heart. barbequeing. especially briskets. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. going to my moms and hangin out, cooking for them.
- Favorite Quotations
- should we not accept the good with the bad, for they both are gifts from god.
- What would you say is your Spiritual gift?
- speaking in tongues,but most important seeing peoples heart. it even extends to seeing the good when there almost isnt any. it's almost always in there eyes.
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- At 7:53pm on August 26, 2009,
trina linville @yahoo.com said… 
- At 11:29am on July 27, 2009,
Rebekah Segaloff said… - hey, stay strong and dont give in. you've come this far and God has such plans for you
- At 4:57pm on July 25, 2009,
Ada said… - hello thanks for d add! god bless... kit
- At 11:36am on July 25, 2009,
Brother Wally_LIBAW said… - Hey Joshua,
Thanks for the friend request. What an awesome testimony! Just shows that no matter who you are or what you have done, God can save you and change you, if you seek Him. Welcome to the LIBAW family. God Bless,
Wally
- At 9:37am on July 25, 2009,
Victoria Jeanne Tovar said… - WOW....Joshua, I don't know what to say!! I read about your life, sounds alittle like mine but alot worse!! I'm sorry you had to go through alot that it must have been REALLY hard. Well, for one thing I'm glad you chose me as your friend!!! Things happen in our life for a reason sometimes we don't know why but they do. I've had many things happen in my life that sometimes I didn't think I would make it through but some how I did in some ways. Your doing a great job by going to the lord he his your only hope and I pray that he blesses you and your two children unconditionally. Take Care and Talk to you later. Have a blessed day!!!!!!
- At 5:43pm on July 15, 2009,
yolanda c. said… 
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thanks for the add. hope your week is goin well
- At 5:54am on May 31, 2009,
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