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"Please help me raise money for Latina Ray, Latina shot and killed her boyfriend after being in a domestic violence situation for years Latina has been held in the Harnett County jail in Lillington NC for almost two years. Latina is facing life in…"
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"Congrats!  Hope your pregnancy goes well!"
Apr 26, 2013
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Our baby at 12 weeks :)
Apr 23, 2013
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"We're expecting our first child!"
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Mar 1, 2013
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"Getting married next month!"
Jan 27, 2013
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Photographs

A few months ago a friend of mine, who is an up-and-coming nature photographer, decided to spend a day and night alone in the woods outside of our town. She wanted to get photos of the woods and wildlife as naturally as she could for her portfolio. She wasn’t afraid of being alone, as she had camped by herself many times before. She set up a tent in the middle of a small clearing and spent the day taking pictures. She filled up four rolls of film on that trip, but when she went and got them…See More
Dec 30, 2012
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Dec 28, 2012
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Candle Cove

NetNostalgia Forum – Television (local)Skyshale033Subject: Candle Cove local kid’s show?Does anyone remember this kid’s show? It was called Candle Cove and I must have been 6 or 7. I never found reference to it anywhere so I think it was on a local station around 1971 or 1972. I lived in Ironton at the time. I don’t remember which station, but I do remember it was on at a weird time, like 4:00 PM.mike_painter65Subject: Re: Candle Cove local kid’s show?it seems really familiar to me…..i grew up…See More
Dec 26, 2012
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The Portraits

There was a hunter in the woods, who, after a long day hunting, was in the middle of an immense forest. It was getting dark, and having lost his bearings, he decided to head in one direction until he was clear of the increasingly oppressive foliage. After what seemed like hours, he came across a cabin in a small clearing. Realizing how dark it had grown, he decided to see if he could stay there for the night. He approached, and found the door ajar. Nobody was inside. The hunter flopped down on…See More
Dec 21, 2012
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"If that dont come out right, its suppose to be a butterfly that says God Bless!"
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About Me
(Testimony Part 1)
My parents were Christian and raised both me and my sister as such. I never questioned God, not even when two of my churches fell apart and I lost my friends, and when I was switched from school to school.
When I was 11 I was moved out of Colorado and we came to upstate New York. The only people we knew were my mom's college roommate and her husband who have been close family friends of ours. That was when I first began writing.
I was placed in my third school, this time a public school which was a far cry from the private school and the charter school I have been in. I had no friends, and I learned the hard way how shallow middle school students can be.
I became friends with a girl named Mary and she was like my sister. Halfway through the 8th grade was when things first went wrong. I never felt like I belonged and I couldn't understand why the other students were so mean when I never did anything to them other than be different. That lead to my first experience with real depression and was when I first practiced self-mutilation, the act of harming the body on purpose.
Mary called me out on it immediately and helped me gain the courage to turn back to God and let go of the pain. A month later she committed suicide.
I didn't have time to grieve.
Not long after the news another blow struck. I was babysitting for Ted. He was like a second father to me. My own dad, while loving, was very strict and focused on making us fear him. He, on the other hand, was a lot more fun and always knew how to make my sister and I laugh.
I was babysitting for him but all that day I knew something was wrong but I didn't know what or what to do about it. He came into the house while I was putting his son down for his nap and molested me in his kitchen.
I didn't have time to recover from that either.
I was so angry and in the worst pain I had ever known but I wasn't ready for what happened the following week. We got a phone call while we were at church. My uncle, after a 4 year battle with AIDS, had died suddenly on his front porch.
At the funeral my grandpa looked to me and said, "No matter what happens, NEVER turn your back on God."
I was so angry and hurt that was exactly what I did. I refused to follow and worship a God who would allow what had been happening to me and I went down a road of self-destruction. I fell into heavy cutting and was soon after suicidal. My parents didn't know how to handle it so they pulled me out of school. I ended up running away from home. I tried to slit my wrists but my dad found me and soon I was in a hospital for psychiatric help.
After I was released I had turned back to God and was on the "right path." I followed the Christian walk for a good five years after that, but it didn't last. Once I was out of highschool and had entered college, my best friends became RIT students. You see they weren't like the "strait A's" or "over acheiver" nerds. They were the type that had actually gotten a vending machine connected to a network so one of them could hack it with their computer and voila! Free snacks for everyone! What I loved about them was I could talk to them about anything and I felt a freedom with them that I didn't feel with my parents. They soon became my family.
My Testimony
(Testimony Part 2)
During this time tragedy struck my church. A man we all knew and loved was caught sexually abusing his 5 year old daughter and had been doing it since she was 2. No one saw it coming. After he was arrested, my pastors made a point of stressing to the wife that her main concern should be repairing her relationship with her husband since "God hates divorce." They didn't care about the daughter at all because "She doesn't seem too bothered by it."
I was furious when I saw they were still so quick to ignore the safety of the victim, and I left the church.
I began dating again. He wasn't a Christian, but I didn't care. I knew I would never find another like him so I took that leap. I loved him hard and recklessly and every moment with him was almost like a movie. He helped me grow more and more true to myself, and he helped bring the real me out that had been hiding through years and years of my parent's judgmental ways.
It didn't last. He fell out of love with me, my mother telling me it was God's will because this "was best" and part of "God's plan." I was so angry I turned from God again. We hadn't been hurting anyone, and it had been the best relationship I had ever been in.
I decided from that moment on I was going to live my life the way I wanted, not depending on a god to take care of me. I was going to take care of myself. I slept with my ex and after a while he moved away. When he left, it felt like a hole had been punched right through my chest and I fell further into darkness. I was carving my legs with knives but felt nothing. There was no skin on my shoulders but it didn't hurt.
My most perverted friend and I met up just for sex, just to feel pain. It's the darkest memory I have. I let him abuse and torture me for two days and when I walked away from it I felt dead. A week later I tried to slit my wrists. My friend broke down the door and hugged me while I wept, then told me he was going to make a deal with me. I had a month, and if things were still bad and not improving, he would help me get my affairs in order.
The next morning I noticed the sun for the first time in months.
Soon I began to notice and feel things, and I felt life becoming easier with time and actual healing taking place.
Now my life has meaning it never had before. I feel and see things with more attention than I used to, and I never take a day for granted.
Favorite Activities
Reading, Gaming, Writing, making videos
Favorite Music / Movies / Tv Shows / Books
Music: Sufjan Stevens, The Decemberists, Company of Theives, Beirut
Movies: Anything horror
TV Shows: Big Bang Theory, How I Met Your Mother, Scrubs, The Simpsons
Books: Right To Life, The Girl Next Door, Carrie, Salem's Lot, To Kill a Mocking Bird, Anthem
Favorite Quotations
"We can't bust heads like we used to, but we have our ways. One trick is to tell 'em stories that don't go anywhere - like the time I caught the ferry over to Shelbyville. I needed a new heel for my shoe, so, I decided to go to Morganville, which is what they called Shelbyville in those days. So I tied an onion to my belt, which was the style at the time. Now, to take the ferry cost a nickel, and in those days, nickels had pictures of bumblebees on 'em. Give me five bees for a quarter, you'd say. Now where were we? Oh yeah: the important thing was I had an onion on my belt, which was the style at the time. They didn't have white onions because of the war. The only thing you could get was those big yellow ones..." -Abe Simpson
What would you say is your Spiritual gift?
The ability to wipe out a hard NOD AI army with nothing but decintigrators.
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Photographs

Posted on December 30, 2012 at 10:15pm 0 Comments

A few months ago a friend of mine, who is an up-and-coming nature photographer, decided to spend a day and night alone in the woods outside of our town. She wanted to get photos of the woods and wildlife as naturally as she could for her portfolio. She wasn’t afraid of being alone, as she had camped by herself many times before. She set up a tent in the middle of a small clearing and spent the day taking pictures. She filled up four rolls of film on that trip, but when she went…

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Candle Cove

Posted on December 26, 2012 at 10:05pm 0 Comments

NetNostalgia Forum – Television (local)

Skyshale033

Subject: Candle Cove local kid’s show?


Does anyone remember this kid’s show? It was called Candle Cove and I must have been 6 or 7. I never found reference to it anywhere so I think it was on a local station around 1971 or 1972. I lived in Ironton at the time. I don’t remember which station, but I do remember it was on at a weird time, like 4:00…

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The Portraits

Posted on December 21, 2012 at 12:08pm 0 Comments

There was a hunter in the woods, who, after a long day hunting, was in the middle of an immense forest. It was getting dark, and having lost his bearings, he decided to head in one direction until he was clear of the increasingly oppressive foliage. After what seemed like hours, he came across a cabin in a small clearing. Realizing how dark it had grown, he decided to see if he could stay there for the night. He approached, and found the door ajar. Nobody was inside. The hunter flopped down…

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Quiet Tears

Posted on November 29, 2012 at 7:40pm 3 Comments

I've been struggling a lot this past week with something that happened to me, and while I'm working to get through this, I've felt it put on my heart that I need to share this story, especially with any women out there who might read it as a cautionary tale that just because you think it won't, doesn't mean it won't.



A week ago I was hanging out at a friend's house, watching movies, and he brought me a glass of wine (he had been teasing me earlier for my…

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At 6:24pm on June 22, 2014, Pastor Priscilla Robinson said…

Please help me raise money for Latina Ray, Latina shot and killed her boyfriend after being in a domestic violence situation for years Latina has been held in the Harnett County jail in Lillington NC for almost two years. Latina is facing life in prison without parole. Please help us raise money for Latina Ray to obtain an attorney that will support her and allow people to see how bad and covered up domestic vioence is in our community we will appreciate any size gift you are willing to give. Go to: http://www.gofundme.com/advt40         
Thank you
Priscilla Robinson

At 9:17pm on April 26, 2013, Apple of HIS eye said…

Congrats!  Hope your pregnancy goes well!

At 9:57am on December 2, 2012, Apple of HIS eye said…

If that dont come out right, its suppose to be a butterfly that says God Bless!

At 9:56am on December 2, 2012, Apple of HIS eye said…

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At 9:28pm on December 1, 2012, RandyBroekema said…

howru

At 10:53pm on December 30, 2011, PROPHETESS CAROL said…

Happy New Year

At 3:30am on November 23, 2011, Pastor Qaisar Anwar said…

I am working with orphaned, street and poor children in Pakistan. We need your prayers and love and support to our orphaned children. Please see if you can any help to our Pakistani Orphaned, Street, Poor and needy children.

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At 7:25am on June 27, 2011, RandyBroekema said…
have a sweet day
At 11:25pm on April 16, 2011, Paul & Loretta said…
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