Stephanie Shaw-Hollingsworth's Page

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About Me

I am a wife and mother of 4 beautiful children. My husband and I moved to Elizabethtown, Kentucky from Tacoma, Washington just over three years ago.

My testimonial is really long so I started it here

Testimonial

My parents, well my Mom, always tried to make sure she instilled in her kids her beliefs in the lord. When I was young I hated going to church and I couldn't wait until mass was over so that I could get out of there. As I got older it didn't change much and I was not the best in some of the things that I did. While in high school I did all the things that pleased myself, smoking, drinking, smoking pot, running away from home, moved out for 2 months while still in high school (although sex was still something I didn't partake in)... Thinking if I set foot in a church surely God will strike me dead. I graduated a year later that I was supposed to and not from a traditional high school, and I was almost 19. I hated my dad and moved out shortly after I graduated. When I was 20 years old I got pregnant with my daughter by a guy that I was so in love with and he was engaged to another woman... who was my friend. I'd known him for years and we were friends long before they ever met so I thought I had the right to sleep with him. I turned 21 while pregnant with her and he denied for a long time that he was the father and we didn't speak for most of my pregnancy. I was seven months pregnant when I found out he had enlisted to the Army and was going to Korea in January.

My Testimony

December 12th my daughter was born and we married on December 22nd 1995. He left 2 weeks later. The following summer I was in a car accident and he came home and and I got pregnant again...this time with twin boys, born in June 97. He left us in March of 99. I really thought after giving everything that I had to that marriage and he didn't love me that I wasn't good enough. In the span of several months I slept with every guy that gave me a second look. I have always been over weight and hated myself for it, so I was searching for the guy who would love me for who I was. In June of 2000 I moved in with my mom and my baby brother who went off to the Army after high school. My kids and I lived with my mom for two years during which I went to college and got my associated degree while we shared care of my kids, and grew very close. She moved to Virginia to live with my other brother and I was going to move to Kentucky to live with a friend and start over. Shortly before the move was supposed to happen I met a man who asked me to stay. He was stationed at Ft. Lewis and after dating a few guys I was petrified of even the word marriage, even though I was still legally married to my first husband. I talked it over with my kids and they said they wanted to stay. So we stayed. We moved in together and lived as a family for four years when my first husband finally filed for divorce and I married my second husband just days after the divorce was final. We have been together 8 years now. During the first couple years of our relationship with my mother in Virginia with one brother, the other brother off in Iraq and all my friends leaving I went into a serious bout of depression. Our move to Kentucky was based on a job that I was offered that was supposed to be the perfect job for me, and it turned out to be one of the worst. I left it after six months. Until January this year I had been working in home health care for MR/DD individuals and the company that I worked for treated me horribly. Yeah I had all the perks, sick time, vacation time, medical, dental, vision, 401k... etc etc. But I was doing jobs that were not in my job description and higher paying jobs and even though I applied no one would let me advance. In the summer of 07 my grandfather passed away and I wasn't able to make it home for any of the things going on surrounding that. My husband and I really struggled after moving here. We argued and grew apart from each other. I started to look for attention from other men...again. Last summer we were really struggling and I felt something pulling me to go to church. I was really struggling with this pull because I was working 36 hours a weekend and I used that as an excuse not to go. When I finally went I cried most of the way through mass and decided that my grandfather who was a deacon while he was alive was pulling me back to God. I only went a few times and then quit again. When we moved to another county and I was having medical problems, high blood pressure, severe depression, diabetes, and then while at work I had chest pains, I went on FMLA leave. My family had started going to a little community baptist church, being raised in a strict catholic atmosphere I balked at the thought of being in a baptist church. I started going with my family to all the different things they were going to at the church, open gym on Friday nights, Wednesday night bible study, Sunday morning bible study and even service on Sunday mornings. I fell in love with the people the pastor fed me what I needed and I am so glad that I stepped out of my box... My mom laughs at me today when I talk about all the things going on in my life now and she says... "Who are you and what have you done with my daughter." She is so proud of me and happy for the things that i am doing. I thank God and grandpa for lighting a fire uinder me and in me for a new found faith in God and Jesus Christ.

Favorite Activities

Fishing, Camping, hangin with the family and friends

Favorite Music / Movies / Tv Shows / Books

Country, Rock, Christian

Favorite Quotations

Only God can judge me.

What would you say is your Spiritual gift?

Passion