"What gets us into trouble is not what we don't know, it's what we know for sure that just ain't so."

Everything I have read about you reminds me of myself when I was searching for the Lord.When I was 15 yrs.I made alot of the same wrong choices when I was young.Oneday I was walking down the street and started talking out loud.I said is God really real.Then I was wondering why all these people go to Church.Their has to be something their for them to keep going.I didn't understand what that could be.Then I was wondering why was I born? My life should have some kind of meaning.I felt alone in a crowd even though I was popular.I wanted my life to have meaning.One day the Lord found me and he had my Mom to take me to Church.I went but thought it was a waste of time.I heard the message and decided to investigate to see if Jesus was real.I ask them how do you read this Bible.They showed me how to look up scriptures.Then I ask how do you pray they taught me you talk to the Lord and say the truth because the Lord is Holy and pray for righteous things not sinful things to be in your life.Then they said you need to memorize scriptures and say them out loud so your ears hear Gods word.Once the Word of God gets from your head into your heart you start loving things that are good for you.When I would memorize I did what the Lord told me to memorize.I memorized for 1hr.every morning and prayed before I started my day with the Lord.I was learning about the Holy Spirit.When I met the Holy Spirit I learned to do what the Holy Spirit said to do even if it didn't make since or people would laugh at me I didn't care as long as I was with the Lord that's all that mattered to me.Life has a totally new meaning in the Lord.Hold on to the Lords promises he will never fail you only people do.
Proverbs.3:5,65 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.


People aren't perfect and you can't expect them to be because the only thing that is perfect I found is only the Lord.We have to learn to forgive the people that hurt us and to forgive ourselves for make wrong decisions.The Lord wants us at the end of living our selfishes life styles that have no purpose or meaning to find the Life he gave us.Jesus Christ life is so much better then any life we could ever dream up for ourselves.The empty spot inside of each of us that can never be filled is God's spot only you can't fill it with anything else only Jesus.I have some scriptures to share with you on your journey of your new life with the Lord.

Eph.5:8-14 8For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Live as children of light 9(for the fruit of the light consists in all goodness, righteousness and truth) 10and find out what pleases the Lord. 11Have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness, but rather expose them. 12For it is shameful even to mention what the disobedient do in secret. 13But everything exposed by the light becomes visible, 14for it is light that makes everything visible. This is why it is said:
"Wake up, O sleeper,
rise from the dead,
and Christ will shine on you."


(This one is for your depression.)
2 Tim.1:7 For God has not given us a Spirit of Fear but of Power and Love and a
Soundmind.

(This is why we memorize the Word of God to Clean Our Thoughts it's like you taking a shower except this is a Holy Shower in God's Holy Word.)
Eph.5:26-27 26.to make her holy, cleansing her by the washing with water through the word, 27and to present her to himself as a radiant church, without stain or wrinkle or any other blemish, but holy and blameless.

(This is for your Thoughts)
Phil.4:8-9 8.Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9 Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

You know I am telling you the truth because it's not from me it's from the Lord to help you grow more in him.Their a book that is very good that can help you grow alot in the Lord.It's Called Purpose Driven Life.It will help you on your journey with the Lord.If you go to Church and you will learn alot in Sunday School.This is where you learn the Truth.You Love Music listen to songs that touch your heart deeply in the Lord.
Give up all the bad things you fell in love with so the Lord can clean you up and give you something alot better that was meant for you in the first place it's just Satan came to destroy your future in the Lord.
I pray the Lord sends you a Mentor that is Strong in Faith and has Wisdom and Knowledge and Understanding that will teach you the Truth so you can stand strong in the Lord and know your life has a greater purpose threw the Lord.

A Woman's Heart should be so Lost in God that a Man needs to seek him in order to find her.
A Real Christain is Honest as they can be even when it hurts themself to be closer to the Lord.If a Christain is attacking you they aren't suppose to be they have some growing up to do themselves.Trust in the Lord !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hope this helps you,Be Blessed in True Love Jesus Christ is the only way,From a Real Sister learning about the Lord all the time.Sonya