Prayer Request: Stuck in this dilemma, trapped in this situation

 I have faced a lot of conflicts, hardships, stressful matters, emotional problems, and unpleasant moments a lot. Since 2009, I have been facing those issues. I was first stressed out, then I was hard-bitten, then I faced emotional offenses from my friend and parents (my friend criticised me before, more than once), and I face frustrating moments, like parental complaints each and every time I'm not doing what I'm supposed to do. And my dogs get in my way every time I move around or when I do what my folks are asking me to do at times. And I am bothered often, and I remember when my mom was asking me to do something, she was on my case about doing it right then and there, esp. each and every time I delay of doing so. I even remember my mom woke me up in the wrong way, like get me out of bed to do things immediately, esp. when I do not feel active in the mornings. I also remember being pressured to do things I'm supposed to do immediately. Those moments have been going on for quite some time, and I feel as if I'm still going through them at certain times. Also, every time my mom is starting to get circumstantially upset and complain at me, I get upset with her reacting that way, then she has answers to everything and wins the arguement. Reiterate, each and every time that circumstantially happens and applies. So I feel dominated, and I feel inapt to these unpleasant matters and circumstances. I did not pray on it because I do not know what to say in prayers, so I don't know what's the point in praying if I have nothing to say about these dilemmas. These unpleasant moments are emotionally stirring and effective. They made me feel small and bad.

When I try and talk it out with my mom, and point out the facts and explain how I feel about it, she is weeping and sobbing over it and claiming that I hurt her feelings with those words instead of her acknowledging the fact about what she is treating me like when angry and understanding how I feel about the facts.

But when I just express how I feel about it, there's either subject changes or when I point them out and explain them to my mom, she is replying to me about doing what I'm suppsoed to do in the present day, when I'm talking about how often I go through those moments. The whole phase has been reiterative for quite some time. I repeat, the whole entire phase has been reiterative for some time now, and I feel as if they are still happening, due to the routines or rituals I go through in the household.

I feel so bad from those particular unpleasant matters and situations that I feel like I want to be alone or spend time with those who are spiritually and emotionally mature, but the big problem is: I cannot drive a vehicle and I do not have a job, and I am in Lawrenceville, Georgia. But if I'm thinking about living all alone, I would need to pay bills and mortgage, but I would need a roomate or a wife, since I cannot do it myself, and I am not ready for that stuff, because again, I am unemployed and I can't drive. Not only that, but I am not ready to get a girlfriend because I am so much managed by emotions, I fear I might mess up the relationship and the pressure will be heavier on me. To avoid that stuff, I have to use common sense and discernment and discretion, in ways to avoid conflicts. But the problem is: I have autism and a brain fog, so I cannot think straight and I am so down that I struggle to use common sense, discernment and discretion, especially because of my low self esteem and downward disposition.  So in this case, I am not ready to get a girlfriend and I am not ready to live on my own. So I'm stuck in the household with my parents, and those problems of mine are parental. They have been going on for too long in Brandon, Florida. But now, me and my mom are in Lawrenceville, Georgia for approximately 3 years, and I think I still go through the same issues at certain times, and I don't know what to do to get out of this dilemma and situation. I tried talking it out with my mom, but that doesn't work, for she has answers to everything and she wins the conversation (as explained in italic font above) and I still am not feeling better. Instead, I am feeling worse, emotionally.  In Brandon, Florida, that happened a lot, but me and my mom moved to Lawrenceville, Georgia and we are only here for 3 years, so I am using my time wisely. But even if I'm in Georgia, I think I'm still facing the same issues at times as I did back in Brandon, Florida (2009, past 2010 to 2011), and I feel like everything I do to escape these dilemmas and situations are a complete and utter failure, and I feel absolutely miserable. I also am continually listening to my mom's repetitive, ongoing complaints about household situations and what is not done around the household, each and every time that happens, and even if I take care of them, then my mom is appeased, but I still feel upset. But if it is not done, then she is complaining at me, and those moments are being repeated over and over again and the whole thing is going on and on and on for too long, and I still do not feel happy from all of that. I do not know what to do to handle these matters properly, since I am inapt to these situations and dilemmas and I am overcome by emotions. I read Joyce Meyer's Manage Your Emotions book and follow its directions,but still, my emotions are not yet managed. I mean, Joyce Meyer said "If you have emotional problems, then you need to stop associating with those who are far worse off than you are and instead, you need to spend some time with those who are spiritually and emotionally mature" but again, I have nowhere else to go, because one more time, I cannot drive and I am unemployed, and I am encountering this major pain in my life. *sigh* If you want to help me, I appreciate that very much.